A part of me is to blame
It was another day of “work sucked”! Boy, am I in a rut right now. I had to do a job that I despise and now I have a kink in my back.
Obviously I was in a bad mood, but work is not the only reason. I have realized that it has been too long since I was out w/ the girls. My late husband kept a pretty close eye on me, but I had time for my friends. Probably because he spent alot of time w/ his and we took turns watching the boys. Now I’m w/ a guy that likes to spend time w/ me, which is all great, but like I said, I’m not having girl-time. So on a recent post I didn’t think the problem was me, but now I’m thinking differently. It’s still not all my fault, but I will take the heat for a little.
I was telling a coworker/friend about this and we think some of us should get together at least once a month and just hang out. We’ll bring a dish to pass, have a few drinks and talk!
A politician was in the building, trying to change her image and show her state that she is a people person. Funny thing is, we are out of her state and the 2 people I saw her w/ were Scabs. I hope she’s not saying she’s for a union!!
Life’s Changes
Things are heating up again in the midwest, so it’s going to be miserable at work. I keep looking for something new, but the only college education I have is Supervisory Management and being a babysitter for adults isn’t my thing. I went to school because it was 100% paid for due to my Leadperson position.
I also have my boiler’s license and took a welding course. I prefer a job that’s not on my feet for 9 hrs a day and have air conditioning. Plus money that’s comparable to what I’m at.
Our local police had something to do lastnight. A few people where breaking into places and causing trouble. This went on for a good hour and a half at 3 a.m. My dog was barking and the neighbor’s was too and he called it in. I got the play by play from the scanner and watching the police patrol the area. I also saw 2 people running through yards, but there was nothing I could do to help at that time. I went over to talk to the neighbor but he didn’t see them.
I got out and socialized yesterday. Went to a wedding reception then to an after baptism/birthday party and saw a couple people I hadn’t seen in a few yrs. Turns out, J is friends w/ their daughter and he stops in at their place w/ friends. They had good things to say about him and now they know where he comes from.
I received and forwarded one of those emails about “Getting to Know Your Friends” and the question about What Friend Have You Known the Longest, I questioned “Does this mean friend or aquaintance?” and said I wasn’t going to answer that one.
I changed how I detremine a friend, and a friend, to me, is someone you do things w/ or talk to on a regular basis. I’m just so pissed about sending out invitations to people, BECAUSE I’D LIKE TO SEE YOU, and not many people showing up. Some of you might be thinking that it’s me. I know that’s not it. People change and I’m trying to change a life I had w/ my late husband and trying to hook up w/ old friends.
I guess it’s time to just meet new ones.
Enough of my rambling. I’m somewhat new to blogging and don’t do it often, so I get a little winded.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that’s How It Is.
Myrtle
Things are Looking Up
I got the school situation figured out today for D. Things could be tight for awhile, but as long as he applies himself and keeps his s!#t together it will be all for the better.
J is going to be busy this weekend bumping elbows w/ some pros and working. I’m not seeing much of him. Texting is a good thing. I’m so glad he is enjoying life. He was really down after losing his father. A good friend of his dad’s has been spending time w/ him. Gives J a place to work on stuff and ride dirtbike. J was really mad at me for moving to town and taking that away from him. Things are obviously good again.
There’s still some tension in the air between SJD and me, but I’m sure it will be okay. He had his hopes up for something and I couldn’t help him out. I feel terrible, but w/ D going to college I just couldn’t.
Rain put a damper on a motorcycle ride tonight. YES, I AM A FAIR WEATHER RIDER!!! I get crap about that sometimes, but when I rode a 1981 650 Kawasaki, it rained everytime I rode it. SERIOUSLY!! I even took my road test in the rain. We were camping one time and this guy pushes my bike about 10 feet to move a picnic table and it started raining for about 15 minutes. “DO NOT MOVE THE BIKE!” My bike was referred to as the Kawi Cloud. I have a 1995 1200 Sportster and the only time it rained was when I rode it home from the dealership…13 yrs ago.
Work is going to suck for awhile. Another person was put in our team, so it adjusts work flow, which puts me away from a job I like alot. However, my body might feel better. I’m having trouble w/ my left knee. I injured it twice (motorcycle & car accident). I’ve started looking for a different job. I really don’t want to stand for the next 25 yrs of employment. Not what I’m doing now, anyway.
I’ve had 2 political calls recently from the Obama side, but they hang up when I tell them I’m going w/ McCain.
It’s Wednesday, which is usually my Do Nothing Night, so that’s where I’m headed.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
Stressing!
I absolutely hate times like these!
Where do I start?
First, I’m having a hard time getting all the financial stuff figured out for my son to go school and it makes me feel so stupid! But there just aren’t enough options to choose from or not what I’m looking for. So I called the school and said I’m showing up tomorrow…I need help!
My younger son got his schedule for school and we need to make some changes. He took summer school classes and finished a class that is on his current schedule. That’s minor.
I have a couple friends that I need to take a break from. One always talks to you like you don’t “get it” and she could’ve ended the story 2 paragraphs ago. She’s soooo animated too when she talks. Actually I hadn’t talked or seen her in a couple months, then I did twice this past week and…I don’t know what to say. The other friend is having problems w/ her daughter. Or the other way around. The daughter is sick of her mom and hasn’t talked to her in a month. The daughter is my Godchild so I had her over last evening to find out what’s going on and I don’t blame her for being pissed. I did, however, suggest that since she’s 18 she should face it and at least leave a message on her mom’s cell during work and let her know how she feels. The mom is on vacation next week and wants to take her daughter school shopping. I’m not so sure that’s going to happen. This is a long story w/ lots of details and it’s all added into whatever else is going on. Both of them know that I am the middle person and will be talking to the other one about what was said.
I also had to make a hard decision regarding helping someone out finacially and there’s a little tension in the air. I have to take care of myself.
I got news that an uncle-in-law passed away. He was about 90 and came across as being ornery, but was really a nice guy. He reminded me of the Grinch when he smiled.
On a high note, I’ve been getting to the gym. I went for a motorcycle ride on Sunday. Work is going okay and I had so much on my mind that Bonnie didn’t even get on my nerves.
The AVON lady did though. She comes in the lunch room once a month during lunch break and stinks it up w/ half a bottle of perfume. How in the hell is anyone suppose to eat? I have allergies and perfume is one thing that should be under the clean air act. I’d rather smell a cigarette.
I also think that when you order a magazine subscription, you should be able to get yours w/o the perfume samples.
Time for bed.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
Writing a book?
I don’t know about you, but I’m so sick of the Brett Favre soap opera. What a drama “queen”! When I retire, that’s it…done! He makes himself look like an ass that no one can trust. How is he going to move on and get respect if he “FLIPFLOPS” like this. Man, let someone else play! Maybe he could be a politician? By the way…I’m a Vikings fan…win OR lose!
I am glad to see more news about 4 ten-hour work days. This is something that a few of us have been bringing up for years at work, but management is not keeping an open mind. Even my weekly newspaper had an article about it!
So…at work I was thinking about writing a book. I heard that if you’re going to write, write about things you know. WOW! I feel like I know so much!
But I think I would like to write books for teenagers and what they go through. I did things I shouldn’t have, but I believe it made me a better parent. I really settled down, almost too much, after having my second son. I knew I wanted to be a parent that was going to be honest, loving, there for them, but I wasn’t going to be their ‘buddy’. I was going to be the parent and I was going to be the one in control. I was a spoiled brat when I was little!!! I have 6 older brothers & sisters and there are 13 yrs between me and the next youngest. I was an OOPS! But they all loved me and spoiled me.
My late husband was like me. The youngest and many yrs in between. So we had many fights of “Who’s Getting Their Way This Time?!” He usually won.
Getting back to parenting. My boys knew that if something came up or an incident happened, I was going to say something.
I remember a couple sex talks w/ the oldest (D) and now I repeat (remind) it to the younger (J) one. When the oldest was going through the puberty thing, I asked my husband if he had the sex talk w/ him. He said, “Yes. I told him to keep his pecker in his pants.”
D turned 16 yrs old seven months after his dad died. So I walked into his room and said, “This is going to be just as uncomfortable for you as it is for me, but…(I then handed him a box of condoms)…someday you’re going to need these and you better know how to use them.” And I walked out of his room.
He could still be a virgin. He has had a couple female friends and gone out on dates, but I’ve told him there’s no hurry. Having a girl can be a pain. If you don’t spend time w/ her she could get all emotional and start playing mind games, etc. I was pretty good at that when I was young.
I also mentioned that he should get his own life figured out and be able to take care of himself before taking on someone else’s life.
I could also write about pregnancy problems, being married to an alcoholic/drug addict, abuse (to me) of several kinds, death, widowhood, money, outdoors, motorcycles, friends moving and how it feels to lose touch w/ them, blah blah blah.
Time for my walk and more thinking to do. I do that too much…thinking that is.
Thank God for all you have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
In House Vacation
So…the day started out w/ a coworker being gone, but she has some characteristics that wear thin on my nerves, so it was an “In House Vacation!” Things went smooth, a couple ‘tours’ came through, but still too fricken hot.
A few of us have started to watch what we eat, because we all have that 10-30 lbs to lose, I just keep track mentally of my calorie intake, but I know I need to balance my protein, carbs & fat better.
I went back to my gym class today after 2 weeks. I did go lastnight and spent a little time on the eliptycal, but that is one thing that’s hard to build up my endurance. I am growing to like it though.
I’m $12 short of my sample sale goal, so that won’t be a problem to achieve since I have until Sunday. A neighbor bought lastnight and another lady stopped tonight. Things are looking good!
But I did end the night w/ the battery being dead on my bike. I thought about riding motorcycle to work, but there was nothing. The dashlights usually come on and it clicks, but nothing tonight. My charger is a piece of crap, so I’m waiting for my son to get me running again.
It is national night out, but I didn’t see any parties in my town at all. What’s up w/ that? I was looking forward to doing something. I lived in the country for over 20 yrs and now I want to do city stuff! Maybe I’ll be a host next year.
Time to Relax
It feels so good to finally be able to do absolutely nothing if I don’t want to.
I attended my first NASCAR race in Indianapolis last weekend and what a great experience. Alot of walking, but it was my first vacation in about 10 yrs!! I’m a Kasey Kahne fan and even had a dream 2 weeks before the race that I was his housekeeper as he traveled during race season. My boyfriend thought that was awesome!
Then I had a Home Show on Wednesday and a Sample Sale on Friday. I returned to my full time job on Wednesday also. It’s not too pleasant in the factory. We are getting alot of heat and humidity.
My boys are busy working, so I’m not seeing too much of them right now. I’m so glad they are not lazy and know what it takes to make money. The older one works maintenance at a golf course and milks cows and the younger one helps out anyone who needs it. He is very mechanically inclined, a hard worker and can fit in about anywhere. I ask God every night to watch over them and guide them to make smart decisions.
I’m looking forward to the future and sharing what I know about life.
Thank God for all you have and realize that is how it is.
Myrtle
