Will Things Start Looking Up?
Do you feel like you’re doing all the right things as a parent and your kids still screw up? I feel like a failure…and it made me cry.
I’m here for them, I don’t sit in the bars or do alot of socializing outside the home, I teach them right from wrong and explain the consequnces and it just breezes right through their simple little minds.
I know they need to learn from their mistakes, but some things are so STUPID!
First, I do love my boys very much and I want them to be good citizens and contribute to society. However… I do not like kids…I don’t have much patience for them and sometimes wonder why God gave them to me.
D & J were so strong for me when their dad died and brought me back to reality when I was having a bad day and I love having them around. I’m beginning to think that maybe I need some counseling. I was hoping that bloggin would help, but I’m not sure it is.
I’m so thankful for JD and his patience. He was sent to me by God and I want him in my life forever. A couple weeks ago I was babbling about my day, and JD was focused on a football game and I told him I’d quit rambling on and he said he’d listen to me forever. It was a special moment for me. It was the first time forever was said…even though we talked about marriage. Crazy thought, huh?
Well, tomorrow is another day.
I went to the gym today and they got these cool bikes where you’re like in a video game and keep your scores, etc.
I also worked in a different department these past few days.
I’m driving a loaner vehicle, cus some old fart in a truck backed into my car and it needs to get fixed. I don’t have a window and my door doesn’t work. The Ford I’m using could fit into the truck of my Chrysler. What a change! It’s like driving a go-cart.
Anyhow…
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
Emotional Meltdown
I’ve had a hard past week and I didn’t really see it coming. I thought I had moved on after the death of my husband, but this past weekend marked three years and I was pretty much a mess. No matter what anyone did, it just wasn’t enough. And now I feel bad.
First my sister in law called to inform me that her granddaughter was being baptized, but her son relies on her to do too much and assumed she had gotten ahold of me. It’s his daughter and he needs to grow up and take on adult responsibilities.
I had to set up an expo Saturday, and w/ it being Leaf Season…we have those in the midwest…where the leaves turn colors before falling off…and the turnout was not good.
JD and I went out for dinner and a couple drinks and he pretty much ignored me the whole time we sat there. College football was on. Then he made a comment about bringing along his PSP and I informed him that wasn’t allowed when we were on a date. He used to be such a hands-on guy…you know, a hand on the thigh, arm across the back of the chair, etc. NOTHING Saturday night. And it hurt so bad. It was one of the things that attracted me to him was that he wasn’t afraid of PDA. I told him it’s hard to compete w/ football and video games. I’m working 60 fricken hours a week and I went on a date w/ a back and a pair of shoulders. Should’ve just put the damn pj’s on and curled up on the couch.
Sunday I worked and he tried to get some answers out of me, but it’s hard to talk when you’re on the verge of a meltdown. This is the first time in 2 1/2 yrs that I felt so distant from him. I didn’t like it. Before bed I could have cried myself a river, but I held on. I probably would have felt better, but then there would be more questions why I’m like this.
Today I just wanted to stay home from work and get caught up on stuff. I do feel a sick day coming on.
I love my family so much, and I know things change over time, but when something good comes to an end its hard for me. People see me as being so strong, but I cover up more than I realize.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
Too Much Media Influence
I am sick of the media telling me how I should feel!
They try to have such an influence of this whole economic thing, whereas the company I work for is setting sales records, working OT and when times are tough we do well.
I am probably losing money in my 401(k), but that’s the risk I took when I signed up for it 20 yrs ago.
To a degree I think it’s about time for things to get back on track. I’ve been saying for years that housing prices can’t stay like this forever and I’m just a factory worker w/ no little college education.
Use some common sense people!!! Live a life you can afford and don’t worry about what those around you have. I always figured that there are people who make more money than me, but these people also have more debt, which makes me, in reality to have more money. They have a $200,000 house w/ payments that go w/ it and my house is only a $127,000. THEY SERVE THE SAME PURPOSE!!!!!
I better quit cus I’m just getting rolling and I gotta go to my $25,000 a year job.
I’m sorry so many have lost alot of money, but in some cases it’s a risk you took and you knew it. Also, you are suppose to BUY when stocks are low and SELL when they are high, so just hang in there.
If Obama gets elected it will probably get worse.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
