Typical Tuesday
It’s good to have everyone back to work. Of course Bonnie still has her moments, but I listen to my ipod and just deal with it. I’m beginning to wonder if her mind is slipping.
I joined a contest at the gym that lasts 8 weeks. It’s been tough. On my 3rd day w/o a Dew, I was wanting one really bad! Today was better. I took water w/ me. Work’s water is nasty. I keep telling myself “I’m in it to win!”
It’s hard getting all the right foods together. I need to get in the habit of putting my meals together the night before work. I’ve gotten in the habit of excercise, so that’s going well. Even doing some at home.
I have an extremely busy month! Fundraiser, Conference, Work, Baby Shower, Massage, Meetings, Orthodontist, Christmas Party, Dance. I’m looking forward to it though. I ran into some friends last week and it was good to be out and about.
I pray for those who are experiencing job loss, debt and hardships. I am concerned a little with my job, but they just hired someone, so hopefully the company knows something possitive.
It’s okay for a woman to be the bread winner and a man to take care of the house. Whatever it takes to make things work. I was the one w/ a fulltime job, all the time, and Maynard did a great job as a stay at home dad. I came home to supper more often than not, driveway was always plowed, dishes done, etc. Of course he did work for many years, but not as regularly. It’s what worked for us.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is how it is.
Myrtle
Will Things Start Looking Up?
Do you feel like you’re doing all the right things as a parent and your kids still screw up? I feel like a failure…and it made me cry.
I’m here for them, I don’t sit in the bars or do alot of socializing outside the home, I teach them right from wrong and explain the consequnces and it just breezes right through their simple little minds.
I know they need to learn from their mistakes, but some things are so STUPID!
First, I do love my boys very much and I want them to be good citizens and contribute to society. However… I do not like kids…I don’t have much patience for them and sometimes wonder why God gave them to me.
D & J were so strong for me when their dad died and brought me back to reality when I was having a bad day and I love having them around. I’m beginning to think that maybe I need some counseling. I was hoping that bloggin would help, but I’m not sure it is.
I’m so thankful for JD and his patience. He was sent to me by God and I want him in my life forever. A couple weeks ago I was babbling about my day, and JD was focused on a football game and I told him I’d quit rambling on and he said he’d listen to me forever. It was a special moment for me. It was the first time forever was said…even though we talked about marriage. Crazy thought, huh?
Well, tomorrow is another day.
I went to the gym today and they got these cool bikes where you’re like in a video game and keep your scores, etc.
I also worked in a different department these past few days.
I’m driving a loaner vehicle, cus some old fart in a truck backed into my car and it needs to get fixed. I don’t have a window and my door doesn’t work. The Ford I’m using could fit into the truck of my Chrysler. What a change! It’s like driving a go-cart.
Anyhow…
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
One-sided Relationships
Life continues it’s rollercoaster ride and it was a wild one this weekend!
My boys pissed me off and both are on my shit list! I have come to realize that my #1 son is just like his father and I’d rather not put up w/ that crap anymore. Life for me is about half over and it’s time for me to get selfish. I told him that if he continues on the road he’s traveling on I want him out!!!!! I’ve had enough of his disrespectful attitude. I guess I’ve done too much for him and he appreciates nothing!
The other one is grounded because he thought it more important to do the dirtbike thing than to go to a family reunion. Yeah, I know they can be boring, but it’s not often we all get together. So he finally brought some homework home to pass the time. Plus he mowed the yard for the second time this week.
I told them that the only one that gives a damn about me is my boyfriend and that I should switch my beneficiary to him. Life insurance, 401(k), house, motorcycles, everything.
Other stuff on my mind is what to do w/ one-sided relationships. I have invited the same people to my home for different events and not many show. These are my family members and now I’m turning the tide. I’m invited to a baby shower for my nephew’s wife, and because she has snubbed me, I’m not wasting my time going to that. Maybe if she would have said something to me at the reunion I would have thought about it, but screw her.
I also had to inform a past friend (since childhood) to quit sticking her nose into my business. She is one of those that knows alot of people and will share your life, not in your favor, w/ people you don’t even know. Like they really care about me.
Boy…I sound like such a bitter person, but I really do have a heart of gold and will be there for someone in need. It’s just that relationships wane and it seems that they are all going at once. To fix my dilemna I started a part-time in hopes to meeting new people and moving on.
I used to be the person that others came to w/ their darkest secrets because they can trust me and I am a good listener. I would ask them questions instead of giving them answers.
Anyhow, life around here is going to be a challenge for awhile, but hopefully my oldest son gets what he has coming to him and he knows I’m not going to bail him out this time. I’m not giving up my life for a 19 yr old disrespectful brat!
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
Do I Have a Momma’s Boy?
I wrote earlier about my 19 year old son getting into trouble and it being time to get in his face about being a responsible adult.
After some discussion about life, he pretty much told me that he doesn’t care what people think about him and that he doesn’t want the responsibility of paying household bills…so he enjoys living w/ me, his brother and my boyfriend.
I go through moments when he really pisses me off and I have to get tough on him. I’m glad this doesn’t happen too often, but sometimes I think he needs it.
Some of you may be thinking I should be doing it daily, but there’s more to the story. He’s really a sweet ‘kid’ and has a heart of gold.
He is a hard worker…sometimes 16 hours a day in extreme heat & humidity. He works 2 jobs and will be going to school this fall.
Money has been an issue. He has always paid me back and does pay his phone bill, however he can’t save a dime if his life depended on it. He did do this once when his dad & I wouldn’t buy his first Blazer. But since then…nothing. I informed him today that when he needs personal items (shampoo, toothpaste, etc.) he gets to buy his own from now on. I think he’s generous w/ his money too.
He is always there to help a friend and if I need something done he’s there for me.
Getting on to the living at home thing. In my heart I’m glad he’s here. At least when I wake in the morning and his shoes are here, I know he’s safe. I also think he’s not mature enough to leave and feels comfort in being here. My husband and their dad was killed in a car accident a few years ago and being here could mean that he does like the closeness of family…even though we don’t do a lot as a family. We all have different interests.
He is the only one that continues the upkeep of his dad’s crosses & flowers at the accident site. He goes there more than I realize. It’s his way of dealing with it.
So…do I have a momma’s boy or is he just not ready and mature enough?
Thank God for all you have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle Mayne
