Typical Tuesday
It’s good to have everyone back to work. Of course Bonnie still has her moments, but I listen to my ipod and just deal with it. I’m beginning to wonder if her mind is slipping.
I joined a contest at the gym that lasts 8 weeks. It’s been tough. On my 3rd day w/o a Dew, I was wanting one really bad! Today was better. I took water w/ me. Work’s water is nasty. I keep telling myself “I’m in it to win!”
It’s hard getting all the right foods together. I need to get in the habit of putting my meals together the night before work. I’ve gotten in the habit of excercise, so that’s going well. Even doing some at home.
I have an extremely busy month! Fundraiser, Conference, Work, Baby Shower, Massage, Meetings, Orthodontist, Christmas Party, Dance. I’m looking forward to it though. I ran into some friends last week and it was good to be out and about.
I pray for those who are experiencing job loss, debt and hardships. I am concerned a little with my job, but they just hired someone, so hopefully the company knows something possitive.
It’s okay for a woman to be the bread winner and a man to take care of the house. Whatever it takes to make things work. I was the one w/ a fulltime job, all the time, and Maynard did a great job as a stay at home dad. I came home to supper more often than not, driveway was always plowed, dishes done, etc. Of course he did work for many years, but not as regularly. It’s what worked for us.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is how it is.
Myrtle
Answered Prayers
God answered my prayer. I have moments when I miss Maynard alot and on the 30th of Dec I layed down to take a nap. I thanked God and also asked that I was given strength for my boys and that I could have a sign that Maynard was still with me. As I was dozing off, I went into a dream that I was on an ATV riding on the trails just like Maynard & I used to do.
After a few months of restlessness I finally felt at peace. I knew that he was still w/ me. I also felt a good feeling about JD. The one who has chosen to be with me…despite our age and my situation.
It’s like being in love with two people, but can only have one physically. How does one get over losing a spouse? I’ve asked myself this many times. It’s got to be worse for those that have been married for 50+ yrs.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
I Miss Who I Was
I miss who I was and had a meltdown lastnight.
I had a blow up w/ JD after a week and a half of holding something in. An incident occurred where we ran into someone I had gone to school w/ and this person was drunk and loud and we were in a quiet restaurant/bar and the drunk guy made it known who I was and how I had helped him pass school. This embarrassed JD and is the first time I saw a side of him I didn’t really like. His comment pissed me off and I stewed about it until lastnight.
It made me feel like I wasn’t suppose to have a past and I know so many people! Maynard and I were like the ‘power couple’ early in our marriage. We partied and spent alot of time w/ friends from many towns.
I have been missing the relationships I had w/ people from my past. Maynard was a possessive asshole, but I never felt like I was on a leash. I could come home after a night out w/ the girls and tell him about my adventure…even if it included some idiot trying to pick me up and my girlfriend whisking me away from someone who was a little wierd and telling me not to worry…she was armed that night. She was licensed to carry because of an ex who threatened her.
JD is a quiet person and enjoys spending time w/ me…which I should love, since Maynard went through times when he spent so little time w/ me. I do like doing stuff w/ JD, but there are only a couple friends that I still hang w/ and sometimes I want the whole picture. Being able to walk into a place and have people know me, even the drunks. I miss the casual conversations and catching up w/ people.
It’s good to get that off my chest. I also started wearing my old wedding ring again…on my pinky finger. It’s a pretty ring, why let it sit in a box?
I’m sure there will be more later, just empty in the head right now.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
Stimulous Check Revised
It appears that I didn’t clarify on how I really think about the stimulous checks, by what I had brainstormed about recently…since it sounds like a second check is in the works.
First of all, I have been a fulltime worker for almost 25 yrs in a factory that is affected by the global market. I get nervous when there are layoffs. After 18 yrs at my current job, I was at the bottom of the seniority list. I was told that this was not a coincidence, but that they didn’t want to lose me. That was 4 yrs ago and thank God things have turned around.
I believe that everyone should be responsible for their own debt and should know how much debt you can pay. I will be honest and admit that I don’t know alot of details about how big corporations, banks, insurance companies, etc. operate…but I don’t think that gov’t should be bailing them out like they have been. I’m sure there are other options…especially when you later find out that there are lavish parties and vacations going right along w/ these bailouts. I could go on about this, but there is alot going on that I don’t believe is the right thing to do.
On a personal level, as in people in general, we have become a society where we “just can’t live w/o” a cell phone, satellite TV, expensive cars, lavish homes, brand name clothes and the list goes on.
I drive a car that’s 11 yrs old, live in a house that was built in 1920, buy clothes from consignment shops, garage sales and sale racks. I refuse to pay full price for clothes!
I DO NOT THINK WE SHOULD RECEIVE ANOTHER STIMULOUS CHECK!!! Teach your kids how to scrape by! Say “No” to them when their buddie shows up w/ a new phone and then want’s one too. I’ve had to do this several times. Within a week the desire is over. Kids are not stupid…but little manipulators! This usually starts at age 3.
I do not believe that gov’t should have control over our lives. There have been terms for this since Obama’s name came into play. Communism, Socialiam…whatever you want to call it. I didn’t vote for this type of life or future and was sick to my stomach for several days after the election.
I hope this clears up any negative thoughts about my previous brainstorm.
Keep your comments coming, I love feedback!
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is
Myrtle
How to “Stimulate” the Economy
I’ve been hearing about a second stimulous check, but there is talk about how people will probably pay bills and not make the purchases the gov’t wants them to make.
I came up w/ this idea a few days ago and thought I’d share.
Instead of a stimulous check, why not have the people (us) designate where we would like a gift card to. Or maybe get more than one gift card. There is Best Buy, Amazon, Sears, Kohls, Neiman Marcus and the list goes on. This way there are actual purchases being made. Makes sense to me and others have liked the idea too.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is
Myrtle
Too Much Media Influence
I am sick of the media telling me how I should feel!
They try to have such an influence of this whole economic thing, whereas the company I work for is setting sales records, working OT and when times are tough we do well.
I am probably losing money in my 401(k), but that’s the risk I took when I signed up for it 20 yrs ago.
To a degree I think it’s about time for things to get back on track. I’ve been saying for years that housing prices can’t stay like this forever and I’m just a factory worker w/ no little college education.
Use some common sense people!!! Live a life you can afford and don’t worry about what those around you have. I always figured that there are people who make more money than me, but these people also have more debt, which makes me, in reality to have more money. They have a $200,000 house w/ payments that go w/ it and my house is only a $127,000. THEY SERVE THE SAME PURPOSE!!!!!
I better quit cus I’m just getting rolling and I gotta go to my $25,000 a year job.
I’m sorry so many have lost alot of money, but in some cases it’s a risk you took and you knew it. Also, you are suppose to BUY when stocks are low and SELL when they are high, so just hang in there.
If Obama gets elected it will probably get worse.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
One-sided Relationships
Life continues it’s rollercoaster ride and it was a wild one this weekend!
My boys pissed me off and both are on my shit list! I have come to realize that my #1 son is just like his father and I’d rather not put up w/ that crap anymore. Life for me is about half over and it’s time for me to get selfish. I told him that if he continues on the road he’s traveling on I want him out!!!!! I’ve had enough of his disrespectful attitude. I guess I’ve done too much for him and he appreciates nothing!
The other one is grounded because he thought it more important to do the dirtbike thing than to go to a family reunion. Yeah, I know they can be boring, but it’s not often we all get together. So he finally brought some homework home to pass the time. Plus he mowed the yard for the second time this week.
I told them that the only one that gives a damn about me is my boyfriend and that I should switch my beneficiary to him. Life insurance, 401(k), house, motorcycles, everything.
Other stuff on my mind is what to do w/ one-sided relationships. I have invited the same people to my home for different events and not many show. These are my family members and now I’m turning the tide. I’m invited to a baby shower for my nephew’s wife, and because she has snubbed me, I’m not wasting my time going to that. Maybe if she would have said something to me at the reunion I would have thought about it, but screw her.
I also had to inform a past friend (since childhood) to quit sticking her nose into my business. She is one of those that knows alot of people and will share your life, not in your favor, w/ people you don’t even know. Like they really care about me.
Boy…I sound like such a bitter person, but I really do have a heart of gold and will be there for someone in need. It’s just that relationships wane and it seems that they are all going at once. To fix my dilemna I started a part-time in hopes to meeting new people and moving on.
I used to be the person that others came to w/ their darkest secrets because they can trust me and I am a good listener. I would ask them questions instead of giving them answers.
Anyhow, life around here is going to be a challenge for awhile, but hopefully my oldest son gets what he has coming to him and he knows I’m not going to bail him out this time. I’m not giving up my life for a 19 yr old disrespectful brat!
Thank God For All You Have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
Life’s Changes
Things are heating up again in the midwest, so it’s going to be miserable at work. I keep looking for something new, but the only college education I have is Supervisory Management and being a babysitter for adults isn’t my thing. I went to school because it was 100% paid for due to my Leadperson position.
I also have my boiler’s license and took a welding course. I prefer a job that’s not on my feet for 9 hrs a day and have air conditioning. Plus money that’s comparable to what I’m at.
Our local police had something to do lastnight. A few people where breaking into places and causing trouble. This went on for a good hour and a half at 3 a.m. My dog was barking and the neighbor’s was too and he called it in. I got the play by play from the scanner and watching the police patrol the area. I also saw 2 people running through yards, but there was nothing I could do to help at that time. I went over to talk to the neighbor but he didn’t see them.
I got out and socialized yesterday. Went to a wedding reception then to an after baptism/birthday party and saw a couple people I hadn’t seen in a few yrs. Turns out, J is friends w/ their daughter and he stops in at their place w/ friends. They had good things to say about him and now they know where he comes from.
I received and forwarded one of those emails about “Getting to Know Your Friends” and the question about What Friend Have You Known the Longest, I questioned “Does this mean friend or aquaintance?” and said I wasn’t going to answer that one.
I changed how I detremine a friend, and a friend, to me, is someone you do things w/ or talk to on a regular basis. I’m just so pissed about sending out invitations to people, BECAUSE I’D LIKE TO SEE YOU, and not many people showing up. Some of you might be thinking that it’s me. I know that’s not it. People change and I’m trying to change a life I had w/ my late husband and trying to hook up w/ old friends.
I guess it’s time to just meet new ones.
Enough of my rambling. I’m somewhat new to blogging and don’t do it often, so I get a little winded.
Thank God For All You Have and realize that’s How It Is.
Myrtle
Writing a book?
I don’t know about you, but I’m so sick of the Brett Favre soap opera. What a drama “queen”! When I retire, that’s it…done! He makes himself look like an ass that no one can trust. How is he going to move on and get respect if he “FLIPFLOPS” like this. Man, let someone else play! Maybe he could be a politician? By the way…I’m a Vikings fan…win OR lose!
I am glad to see more news about 4 ten-hour work days. This is something that a few of us have been bringing up for years at work, but management is not keeping an open mind. Even my weekly newspaper had an article about it!
So…at work I was thinking about writing a book. I heard that if you’re going to write, write about things you know. WOW! I feel like I know so much!
But I think I would like to write books for teenagers and what they go through. I did things I shouldn’t have, but I believe it made me a better parent. I really settled down, almost too much, after having my second son. I knew I wanted to be a parent that was going to be honest, loving, there for them, but I wasn’t going to be their ‘buddy’. I was going to be the parent and I was going to be the one in control. I was a spoiled brat when I was little!!! I have 6 older brothers & sisters and there are 13 yrs between me and the next youngest. I was an OOPS! But they all loved me and spoiled me.
My late husband was like me. The youngest and many yrs in between. So we had many fights of “Who’s Getting Their Way This Time?!” He usually won.
Getting back to parenting. My boys knew that if something came up or an incident happened, I was going to say something.
I remember a couple sex talks w/ the oldest (D) and now I repeat (remind) it to the younger (J) one. When the oldest was going through the puberty thing, I asked my husband if he had the sex talk w/ him. He said, “Yes. I told him to keep his pecker in his pants.”
D turned 16 yrs old seven months after his dad died. So I walked into his room and said, “This is going to be just as uncomfortable for you as it is for me, but…(I then handed him a box of condoms)…someday you’re going to need these and you better know how to use them.” And I walked out of his room.
He could still be a virgin. He has had a couple female friends and gone out on dates, but I’ve told him there’s no hurry. Having a girl can be a pain. If you don’t spend time w/ her she could get all emotional and start playing mind games, etc. I was pretty good at that when I was young.
I also mentioned that he should get his own life figured out and be able to take care of himself before taking on someone else’s life.
I could also write about pregnancy problems, being married to an alcoholic/drug addict, abuse (to me) of several kinds, death, widowhood, money, outdoors, motorcycles, friends moving and how it feels to lose touch w/ them, blah blah blah.
Time for my walk and more thinking to do. I do that too much…thinking that is.
Thank God for all you have and realize that is How It Is.
Myrtle
In House Vacation
So…the day started out w/ a coworker being gone, but she has some characteristics that wear thin on my nerves, so it was an “In House Vacation!” Things went smooth, a couple ‘tours’ came through, but still too fricken hot.
A few of us have started to watch what we eat, because we all have that 10-30 lbs to lose, I just keep track mentally of my calorie intake, but I know I need to balance my protein, carbs & fat better.
I went back to my gym class today after 2 weeks. I did go lastnight and spent a little time on the eliptycal, but that is one thing that’s hard to build up my endurance. I am growing to like it though.
I’m $12 short of my sample sale goal, so that won’t be a problem to achieve since I have until Sunday. A neighbor bought lastnight and another lady stopped tonight. Things are looking good!
But I did end the night w/ the battery being dead on my bike. I thought about riding motorcycle to work, but there was nothing. The dashlights usually come on and it clicks, but nothing tonight. My charger is a piece of crap, so I’m waiting for my son to get me running again.
It is national night out, but I didn’t see any parties in my town at all. What’s up w/ that? I was looking forward to doing something. I lived in the country for over 20 yrs and now I want to do city stuff! Maybe I’ll be a host next year.
